Unbearable Suffering: A Personal Struggle Against the Puzzling Suffering of Cluster Headaches

It was a overcast weekday morning in the autumn of 2016. I was working as a educator, trying to settle a new class, when a sharp pain erupted behind my one eye. Then came quick jolts, reminiscent of electric shocks. As each class progressed, the pain eased and then returned with increased intensity. Four times that day I left a teaching assistant with worksheets and ran to the staff bathroom to soak my face with cool water. I took paracetamol, but the pain remained unrelenting.

The headaches appeared repeatedly that fall, and again in spring, soon forming an annual cycle. The autumn months were the worst, then February and March. I could anticipate the pattern: a warning sensation in the morning, early twinges on the commute, full-on agony in the classroom by mid-morning. In late 2019, a GP finally sent me to a neurologist and I was diagnosed with cluster headaches.

Cluster headaches often start with severe discomfort behind one eye that lasts for three hours.

About 1 in 1000 people suffer by the condition, and men are more frequently affected. Cluster headaches usually start with abrupt, excruciating pain around a single eye that reaches its peak within a short time and lasts for up to three hours. Episodes occur in cycles, daily or multiple times a day, and are accompanied by tearing eyes, sagging eyelids or facial sweating. I have an episodic type, which occurs in seasonal cycles; some patients have continuous attacks, defined by the absence of long pain-free periods.

What unites sufferers is the severity. One study rated the pain at 9.7 10, more severe than broken bones or pancreatitis. A separate discovered 64% of cluster headache patients experienced suicidal thoughts amid attacks; the number dropped to 4% when they were not in pain.

One patient, 74, a long-term sufferer from Wales, finds this understandable. Her episodes started when she was a toddler. “I would throw myself on the ground and bang my head. That was attributed to being spoiled,” she says. Her condition worsened through childhood. Alcohol in her adolescence, similar to several triggers, made things more intense. After having sherry at her school leaving party, she remembers hardly being able to see on the transport home.

Her relatives often interpreted her episodes as drunken episodes. Understanding finally came from her father and then from her husband, Rod. “I was very fortunate to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs found clerical work after relocating, but often hid her condition. She was fired from one job, partly due to absences during episodes. Her breakthrough diagnosis came in the early 2000s at a specialist hospital.

Nevertheless, the inability to plan daily activities around unpredictable attacks took its effect. She particularly disliked being unable to plan outings, being seen as flaky as a co-worker, and even having to be cared for by her family during the incapacitation caused by the most severe episodes. “It robs you of the small liberties we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She recalls obtaining tickets for a significant concert, only to have an attack inside a facility.


Headaches have been described across the ages. “The first account of headache originates from the ancient civilizations in antiquity,” write authors in a book on the subject. They attributed the ailment to an malevolent spirit who afflicted his sufferers' heads.

Historical medical texts suggest bizarre treatments for what some experts would describe as a migraine. In the middle ages, severe headache was identified as a separate condition, with therapies including herbal concoctions to other, more folk cures.

It was a European physician who provided the first detailed description of a cluster-type attack. In his medical observations, he describes a patient “afflicted with a very severe headache occurring and vanishing daily at fixed hours”.

Cluster headaches were only formally recognised by international medical societies in the late 1980s. From the mid-20th century to the late 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a issue with a key blood vessel which supplies blood to the head. Leading specialists in diagnosing the disorder note this.

In 1998, scientists released the results of a study for which they had induced attacks in patients and monitored the attacks in a brain scanner. The results, featured in a prominent medical publication, showed increased activity of the hypothalamus, which is in charge for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in discomfort, and a reduction when they felt better.

Despite such progress, diagnosis remains delayed. One man's symptoms began in 1986 and felt like “a modelling balloon being blown up behind my one eye”. Doctors thought he had sinus problems; he had four operations before eventually being diagnosed in recently, after a physician researched his symptoms.

Specialists say delays in diagnosing and treatment occur because patients are seldom seen during an episode. “You're exhausted and low, but not in severe pain,” one says. He proceeds by eliminating other primary head pain conditions, such as tension-type headache, before confirming the disorder. A thorough patient history is crucial: on which side do signs appear? For how long? What season? Are there triggers, such as certain foods? Specific characteristics such as tearing, drooping eyelids and nasal congestion help confirm cluster headaches. Once identified, patients may be referred to specialist clinics. But a lot of first arrive to A&E or are given inadequate therapies.

A charity trustee, in her late seventies, has suffered from cluster headaches for the majority of her adult life, although she hasn't had an attack since recent years. When she was in her twenties, she had her teeth pulled because dental professionals misunderstood her symptoms. She thinks dentists still need greater education. When another patient sought help from a support group, it was she who replied. I remember calling a support line during an bout in 2021; a reassuring advisor talked them through oxygen therapy and medication until the attack passed.

National guidance on treatment advise that patients are offered high-dose oxygen therapy and/or a specific medication administered by nasal spray. No oral painkillers or opioids should be used. Preventive options include a blood pressure medication, which reportedly soothes the attacks of well-known people.

But consultant specialists believe the official guidelines need updating to reflect a more defined treatment pathway and help GPs avoid incorrect prescriptions. For episodic patients, the treatment window is critical: “The duration of the cycle determines the treatment.” Brief bouts with infrequent episodes are managed with abortive therapy only. More prolonged or more severe periods require preventives such as certain drugs, sometimes combined with steroids. Many patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a cycle – an procedure into the area of the skull where the discomfort is that decreases nerve signals.

The official guidelines need revising to reflect a
Brian Dunlap
Brian Dunlap

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